Yesterday started out a normal Sunday. Well, besides waking up awfully early and having very little sleep. I stayed with a family from my church over Saturday night with a couple of friends. We got up at 5:00AM to head to this amazing, Christ-centered church that is 2 hours away. Our little army consisted of Blaine, Jean, two Lexi's, and myself. We made it to church a little to early, I think I should have been able to sleep a little more. We were all so excited for the sermon and Sunday school. We learned so much and I couldn't even take it all in. I could barely breathe with all this amazing scripture I was hearing but I just couldn't take it all in. My heart raced with excitement because I knew that things are changing in me. I recently got saved, I thought for years that I was but doubted it most of the time. It's nice to be free of doubt at this moment. All these sermons I heard over the years, I just couldn't understand them but now I can understand so much. What's more exciting then understanding, hearing, and knowing God's word? I have come to know and accept that this God is a loving God and His love is something I can have. I don't have to push or want to push God away, anymore. I can't even tell you how awesome it is to finally see God in this clear vision. I never had this grasp on Him before. For me it was so easy to let go of God when I needed him most. I would bail out before I could get a grasp on God. I was like a toddler, where a toddler is coming to you and you have your arms reached out for them and they turn away right before they get to you. I am thankful I'm finding this amazing God. I know that there will be many trials ahead so I am enjoying this grasp I have and this joy that it's giving to me to see God this way. It just makes my heart jump for joy to know that this God is now mine. If I could explain it any better I would, but this just makes me so happy, I can't find the words!
I am telling you this because on our way home from church, we got into an accident. 3 cars, 7 people, and God took care of each of us. No one was seriously injured, we all walked away with some whip lash and a probably a little traumatized. One driver hit his head on the window but had only a small cut but was okay. All 7 of us had our seat belts on, too, which seemed a little strange to me because so many people don't. God took care of us all, isn't He so good? Jean was driving, the two Lexi's, and myself. We were rear-ended and we then crashed into a car that was coming out of the gas station we were going into. It wasn't a bad accident but it still was terrifying. After the accident I reminded myself that God was taking care of me and being saved came to mind because what if I had died in that accident? I wasn't scared about dying, I knew that if I did die, I would have went to heaven. I am thankful I didn't because I had one of my best friends in the car and I wouldn't want to put her through that because her brother's anniversary was just last Tuesday which marked 3 years. I know that she would trust in God in it all and remind herself that it was God plan but thinking about it I can't bare thinking about that family losing me as well, even though it wouldn't be as hard as losing a biological child, a child you raised.
I am thanking God over and over the last two days. First yesterday for having the chance to hear the pastor preach our sermon and to hear our Sunday school teacher teach, too. Second, for protecting us all in the accident. Third, for keeping Lexi's family and I safe as we took a 6 hour road trip today. I have many other things to be thankful for, all these little things but my heart is just dancing that I have this God to hold me and protect me.
What a crazy scary good (Good as an amazing but more) God we serve!
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