Today I talked to Jen. I wanted to tell her so many things.
I had so many things I wanted to say. I just could not tell her feeling like such a burden. Just thinking "If i told her I would be just wasting her time. She could be tending to her kids or talking with a friend about something more 'happy'. There is no point so I am not going to talk to her."
Am I Honesty 'depressed'? or do I just think I am? Doctors gave me pills?
But there are somedays. Days like today, days like yesterday, and so many before when I feel so down. So sad, I want to sink into the sheets of my bed and never come out.
Some days I can't think of a reason to get out of bed.
How I can tell someone I always feel sad when I have no clue why I am sad?
I have so many things to say and nothing to convey all at the same time.
I am so grateful for this blog.
So many things I can say here and I know no one I really know will ever read this maybe 2 or 3 people I do know. And even if they do, I'm not sure I care anymore.
I just want to be happy. Consistently happy.
I want to be able to tell people how I feel.
Even when I say I am being "honest" I am never being completely real.I don't want to hurt anyone anymore....
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