Those Little Ones

I have been trying to muster up some words to put together to make a blog post but my words and thoughts are everywhere. I haven't had much time this last week to even think about blogging. I have been at my friends house since Monday and I did not bring my computer. Even if I did bring it, there is no way I would have been able to have time to post something or have no distractions. Are you kidding? 5 little kiddos running around. NO quiet time. I wouldn't trade time with them for anything though. I love those little monsters so much! I felt so very loved this past week staying with them. Henry the oldest, who is 10, was talking to me outside while we were out petting and loving up on the baby goats. (YES. They are the CUTEST things ever!) I was holding one of the babies and our conversation went something like;

Henry; Casey, why did you leave in November?
Me; I moved out because I had more things going on at home that needed to be dealt with.
Henry; Oh. well since you have been here a week, does this mean you are moved back in?
Me; No, but do you want me to move back in? Did you miss me?
Henry; Yeah! You should move back in with us, we all miss you.
Me; Oh! :)
Henry: Is this like your home?
Me; Well, I love being here. It's like my second home.
Henry; Well, good. You should definitely move back in with us then!

This kid even called me one of his best friends this week.

I was shocked that even Thursday I got to spend one-on-one time with Jen all day. It was sure nice to be able to have some deep conversations with her about some things without worrying about one of her kids interrupting or hearing. Spending one-on-one time with Jen is so very rare so I felt very special that I got to spent some time with her.

All her kids just make my day but her baby boy, Gus, is only 16 months and he is just the sweetest thing. I love when he see me, he gets this big grin on his face, runs up to me, and wants me to pick him up. He is at the stage where is understanding what you are saying, so you can ask him for a kiss or a hug and he will decide if he'll give you one.

Charly, her second youngest, is such a sweet heart. One morning she came down at about 7:30 and cuddled with me till 9am. We could have snuggled longer but I had to get up for an appointment. She would look at me and just smile and kiss my cheek and say "I love you, Casey!" She then would snuggle up next me and close her eyes. She would do this over and over again. Her big blue eyes just make her face so precious. At one point it was so silent and Charlotte looked up at me and started laughing so hard and says "You're so funny" Completely random! She is such a silly, girl.

All those little ones make my life so much brighter. To feel so loved on a daily basis and to be able to love them just as much back. They run up to me and hug me and tell me they love me all the time. Those sweet faces just brighten up my life. I don't know how I can be grumpy when little Gus smiles that big smile and runs to me and wants up. Or when Charlotte snuggles with me. Or when Evie and Clara randomly hug me and tell me they love me. Or when Evie tells me I am her favorite Casey and her best big big sister. Or when Henry even asks if I can play legos with him so he can have some time with me, too.

I love those kids so much!

It even makes my life better when I get some time with Jen, one-on-one time or just in the evening when the kids are playing and her and I can just chat. I am so blessed with such a lovely family that God put in my life. They are like my family. <3

They don't even get sick of me! :)

Easter Excitement

This was our Easter excitement.

Snow blower vs Hand... 

Needless to say, the snow blower won by a lot.

Take me to the King

Take Me To The King By Tamela Mann Covered By Sarah Reeves


This song is absolutely beautiful. The first time I heard it, I just fell in love. So, "Take me to the King I don't have much to bring My heart's torn in pieces It's my offering" <3

Read All About It

Fell in love with this song. <3

"I want to sing. I want to shout. I want to scream until the words dry out"

Read All About It - Emeli Sande

Just Trust

I just need to trust God!

College. College. College. School. School. School. It's getting more nerve racking as graduation gets closer. I have decided to let go and apply for the college I feel like I should go too, pay the ridiculous fee and hope that it was the right choice.

Praying. Praying. Praying.

It's Just That Simple

Most of you know that I have had a really rough family life. A broken family. Well back in January when my Grandma was away in the hospital for a month because of replacement hip surgery I stayed with a very sweet family from my church. My family didn't accept that, they wanted me home, they wanted to control me. They were scared that Grandma wouldn't come home. They were mad that I didn't want to stay home. I requested to my Grandma months before that I stay away because I hate being by myself. I hate being alone at night in our little town. Our town is a huge drug town and 3-4 weeks by myself, I would go insane. So I do admit, I kind of did bail out last minute. I tried to get my family to understand but I couldn't get them to, I couldn't get anyone to listen. They didn't get that I was scared too, I need someone and I didn't want to sit in my house and see reminders of my grandparents. My grandpa, whom I have always lost, and my grandma who was in the hospital. I didn't want to constantly think and wait to see if I would get a call to say my Grandma wasn't coming home. My family told me NOT to go to my grandma with my problems but my family was harassing me on facebook and I couldn't take it. My family listens to my Grandma, so they gave me no choice but to go to her. Anyway, my family has pretty much shunned me. They barely ever talk to me, which I can't complain. The drama is now free but my Grandma thinks it's her that they don't come visit. Not exactly, they don't come up but when they do, it's the weekend I work so I am not there. They come and go while I am working. I would like to see my little cousins but I am not sure my family will let me talk or really speak to them. I miss them so much.

ANYWAY, to the point. You get it, my family and I have problems. Who doesn't? It's now a couple months later and my family and I still have a hard time. I don't want to be the family that just gives up. So, tonight, I changed it. I stepped towards them first. I sent my 2 aunts, the ones I have the most problem with, messages on facebook how I was sorry for things I have done and for making poor choices. That I want to be family again. That I loved them and I just wanted things back to normal. I apologized more then once just to be clear. I miss my family. I told my one aunt that it's just that simple; I miss her. I miss her being my aunt.

My family may be crazy and full of drama sometimes but they are MY family, God gave them to me. I miss them and if I can stay in contact with them and fix things with them, I will. I feel God has been putting this on my heart, I needed to show them love and not hate.

I stood up and am showing my 2 aunt's love. Love that will always be there for them. I hope they accept my apology and if they don't, I don't have to regret not ever trying. I at least tried and I know I did my best.

Praying that God gets a hold of their hearts someday. They need Him. <3