Bad Day!

I knew today was going to be a bad day as soon as I was waking up I could just sense it.. I opened my eyes and was not excited to see a spider on my ceiling, {screaming of course}, I jumped out of bed to another surprise. I had stepped in dog pee. I went into the bathroom and was going to wash my foot off to find out, we had to have our water turned off for the day while my uncle was fixing our shower (Once again, I broke out shower nob. This is the second time! (*Sigh*)  I had to wait and wait till the water could be turned back on so I could wash my foot off. I was all ready to get school work done when they called maintenance for the day, couldn't do any homework. Finally after maintenance was done late tonight, I got on my computer and my computer crashed for 2 hours or more. Its up and working now. Earlier on in the day I was watching my baby cousin and puked all over me and as soon as I got cleaned up and changed, he pooped and it went out the back side of his diaper. I had to give him a bath and clean myself off again. He got picked up by my aunt and then my computer crashed. I finally decided I was going to go to the basketball game. I walked in and got a seat. I finally got thirsty and hungry so i stepped down the bleachers and tripped. After i got a pop to drink I was walking and turned right into somebody and spilled pop all over them, as on me. I was a sticky mess. Then have laffy-taffy drool from my friends son all over me, i was a mess.


I am so thankful God got me through the day with very little patience left and very little hope. I am so glad to be able to say this day is over with!!!!

New Beginnings

Well I am starting something new! I am starting to teach myself to play guitar. I played for a half hour tonight, biggest mistake ever! My fingers hurt so bad! Eventually it won't hurt but it hurts to type and its to touch them. I have a 500 word paper to write by midnight tomorrow!! It may take me awhile.

Anyway, this is the third instrument I will be learning to play! I somewhat know how to play piano, I know how to play flute, and am learning how to play guitar! 

Wish me luck on learning! AND Pray that sore finger won't last to long ;) 

Where do I go

This is my song tonight...

Surgery or Should I Say Surgeries...

Well its almost 2012. I was looking forward to having a new year come around. I am NO longer excited. I am sure this is going to be a painful year. I have to get TWO surgeries this coming year. I am scared to have them.

First surgery I have ever had is on my Tonsils. I am getting my first surgery on my tonsils January 18th. I am getting them taking out because I have sore throats about 2 or 3 times a month, so that's over 24-36 sore throats a year. I have only had strep once but it took only once for me to be able to get them taken out! I am glad to get them taken out but at the same time. I have NEVER had a surgery and been put under. I am scared of not waking up! :/

Second Surgery I am getting my wisdom teeth cut out. I will have to be put under for that as well. One of my bottom wisdom teeth are coming in side ways and its hitting my roots on my back tooth so its SO painful. They were going to wait but now they are getting them all out before it starts to push my back tooth out. This is going to be interesting.

One of my worst fears is being put to sleep. I am always scared something bad is going to happen or I won't wake up. I am mostly scared of not waking up. This is the reason why I am scared to get the surgeries but also I don't deal well with pain! :P

Wish me luck and say a prayer everything goes well :)

For A Moment

We live our lives cautiously at times and at other times we live it like today is our last day. But truly are life is a moment. Its a flashes before our eyes. When your my age, 15, you think life is hard and going slow and you've had a lot of pain/heartbreak/bad things happen to you, and it seems like a really long time till 80. Well it may seem that way but it isn't, my Grandma just turned 84. She says life is fast, and can't believe how quick life was, she says that I need to live my life to the fullest, take it slow. She pretty much said the saying of "stop and smell the flowers as you go!"

Life is just a moment. You're here for a minute, and then your gone. No one understands death and why it has to be so painful. Death is a hard things to comprehend, really. you stop breathing. Its scary, not just because of not breathing, but what happens to you when you are gone. Do you really go to Heaven or Hell? I believe so. To the people who out there. what do you believe? Do you believe that life is just something you live and then *Poof*, your gone and you just are dead, like your sleeping. There has to be more! Even when your sleeping, it seems like a moment. Death I would say is like sleeping. You dream when you sleep, when your dead, you aren't dreaming anymore, its better then a dream, you go to heaven if you believe in God, and live your life for him, and glorify him. To accept him as you savior. At times, I am scared of death because what ever happens after is unknown and you will not know until you are Dead.  

If you believe there is heaven after you die, then why is death still scary? Does death scare me because it something unknown? I believe in God and has accepted him as my savior. Death scares me because I am scared of leaving behind the people I love but I also scared of what I'll miss. I shouldn't because when I go to heaven, I will be with the creator of this world, the creator of me and you, of the people who you love. It will be utter bliss, but even knowing this, why do I fear death?

I don't want to fear death because what I don't know comes after but have faith is, will be utter bliss. Heaven! :)

84 years

Happy Birthday, Grandma!!!

Love you, Grandma! <3

My Grandma turned 84 today... :)

On February 10th, my Grandpa will be 84!

On February 28th, My Grandma and Grandpa will be married 64 or 65 years :)

They give me hope that I can have a relationship like they do, besides with a little less bickering ;)

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I was a very happy girl tonight! Tonight God has helped me let go and I can feel him telling me I got this! I got you! :) I let it go to him tonight and I just feel the weight off my shoulders! I can breathe easier...My faith is in God more then ever tonight! He is in control... "Hes got this!" <3

Being a Teen when being bored... :)