Song of the day

I am going to pick a song each day that I can relate to everyday. So Emotion wise. Happy, Sad, Depressed, Mad, Confused ect...

Today's Song:

Meredith Andrews - Can Anybody Hear Me

I'm staring at these empty walls
Wondering when You'll visit me again
When will You come?
If there is anything at all
Coming in between our love
Please show me, ‘cuz I am barely hanging on

Can anybody hear me?
The silence is deafening
Why do You feel so far away?
When I know You're here with me
But I just need faith to see
Nothing can separate me from Your love

Believing what I can't see
Has never come naturally to me
And I've got questions
But I am certain of a Love
Strong enough to hold me when I'm doubting
You'll never let go of my hand

Can anybody hear me?
The silence is deafening
Why do You feel so far away?
When I know You're here with me
But I just need faith to see
Nothing can separate me from Your love

I will trust in You, even in the moments
I can't find you, and I will hold on to
Your promises of love
You've never failed before

I know You can hear me
When the silence is deafening
Even though You seem far away
And I know You're here with me
But I just need faith to see
Nothing can separate me from Your love

In Your Arms

This song just has given me SO much peace.

Take a Listen!

Here are the Lyrics:


 I’m turning the world off

Embracing the silence
Walking away from all the voices
That are Screaming in my ear

I've been too caught up
I've been so stressed out
All of the noise replaced the whisper
That used to be so clear

So I close every door
Put my face back on the floor

And I'm in Your arms
Where I belong
There's no other place for me
Than right where You are
Some things just don't change
When I call Your name
You never hesitate to wrap me in endless grace
When I'm in Your arms

I’m letting my fears go
Giving You control
For You are the one who holds me closer
In my soul's darkest night

Everything I see
Is so temporary
So help me to run the race before me
With eternity in sight

Now I close every door
Put my face back on the floor

To sit at Your feet
At Your table of mercy
To gaze on Your beauty, my Lord
To drink from Your well
And be changed by Your glory
How could I ask for more
Jesus, how could I ask for more

Why...

I was just thinking about my brother tonight. I have never really had a relationship with him because from the time I was born, I was put into foster care right away because our mother had drinking and drug problems and ended up with my grandparents at the age of 1. And for him, he lived with my moms parents, and ended up in foster care. Our mom got him back about 2 years ago when he was 17. He started getting in contact with me and we finally have started a connection.

(Grandpa and I. I was about 3 or 4)

About a month ago, our mom and her boyfriend got into a fight and finally my brother stepped in to stick up for our mom. Our moms boyfriend wasn't happy about this. He was telling them not to go to sleep, and he walked around with hammers. Around 6 in the morning they ended up falling asleep, our moms boyfriend got up and got lighterfluid and started my brother on fire. My brother woke up from the light fluid. He instantly realized he was on fire. My brother has 2nd and 3rd degree burns on his face, hands, and torso. Its been a month now and he is still in the hospital that I know of. 

                                                       (First conference after the Incident)

They had a bank account open for my brother, because he has no medical insurance so kind stangers donated money for him over $4,000. About a week ago my brother Assumes our mother and our uncle took about $2,000 out of the account and ran off with it. My brother says that they struggle with gambling and drug addictions. (Even after 15 years out mother hasn't changed). What is my brother going to do now?

                                                 

                                                 (Second Interview After Money was Taken)

I just keep asking myself Why God did this, why he let things like this happen. I keep asking myself Why did God give me her as my mother? Why he let this happen to my brother? Why did he let her give me away? If he knew she didn't want me, Why did he let her get pregnant with me? I have all this WHY questions. Why this. Why That. Why, Why, Why.

I am still thinking about this......Ill post if I find out an answer. 

Thoughts...

The thought of losing everything I have near and dear to me use to scare me. I always thought id be nothing without it. Well even now i am nothing just a speck of dust! I had a hard long chat with God. I was just flipping through my bible and one verse just popped out to me.

"Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things." Colossians 3:1-2


After thinking about this, I picked up my bible to put it away and a piece of paper fell out. It was the story about my friend who had gotten killed in the skiing accident. I just thought about it harder and harder from what the verse said and then from what the father of the boy who died said. He said "I woke up the next day after Trent's death and everything in his closet was there and everything that he owned on earth was here"


It made me come to the conclusion that no matter how much i love something on earth I can never love it more then God and can never replace God or never do I want to. I can love it and always have it mean something to me but when I die and go up to heaven I will be face to face with my Lord and that thing that meant so much to me won't mean anything to me. It will just be something worthless when I am in heaven with Jesus being in Awe of him.

I am no longer in fear of losing everything on earth because I have something better to look forward to, when I die. Jesus, Heaven, a new body, Eternity, and more! Tonight, I am in awe of God amazing Love, Grace, and Forgiveness! 


Dance for Jesus and Live!
"O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!"


Come to Jesus by Chris Rice

Questioning?

I have always just questioned if blogging or writing my story online would be helpful to others. I've always wanted my story to be helpful. I don't think many will find this but if they do, I hope it can be an encouragement. I have had a pretty difficult life since I was born and not even yet an adult. I have had a very up and down life style. Yes, people have worse then me, way worse. For me right now, Life couldn't get any harder.

I don't hate my life, I love it. God gave me this life for one reason and one reason only, To live for his glory. I will worship my Lord my God everyday and as much as I possibly can. I am not perfect, I am not even near perfect. I make mistakes and I sin, Jesus wipes me clean with his blood.

Lord, Please help this blog that I will be starting soon be an encouragement!

Missing Him....

Today I found my friends blog. I haven't cried so hard in such a long time... Her story brings tears to my eyes but it also gives me so much hope, faith, and encouragement. I look up to her for the strength she has and the love she has for God!

I miss you trent! ♥ You were like a brother to me!

My heartaches to think of you not being here still. I miss your smiling face and your laugh. I miss the way you use to brighten up a room. Watch over your Mom and Dad. They need it!

6 months ago my friends son was killed in a skiing accident. He was 12. He left behind 4 other siblings and loving parents. God took him after just a short time. Trent. You are missed!! Terri My heart goes out to you! My prayers are with you...

Dear Heavenly Father,


I pray that you keep comfort over his parents. You are GOOD. You are AMAZING. Let them praise you like they have been. They will suffer with Trent not being here but Lord our father, they will cry but give them comfort. My heart goes out to that family! 


In Jesus Name,


Amen.